Keeping Faith Fresh

Bonnie Gray from Faith Barista is asking the question this week - How is God challenging you to keep faith fresh?

It's a topic that hits close to home for me right now as we begin to make some changes.

Over the Christmas holidays last year, Doug and I talked about it and decided it was time for me to back the size of my licensed childcare business. We made this decision for a number of reasons, mainly because I wanted to be able to be more available to the children I did take care of instead of being spread so thin. We decided to make the cut around the end of the summer when several of my kids would be going to school anyway. Dropping the license and only caring for five or fewer kids would also mean a lot less paperwork, because being a licensed childcare comes with an awful lot of paperwork.

Now as we're getting closer to the time to cut back, Doug's hours are also being cut back at work. It's not an extreme cut, but it is a cut. And there are rumors of more cuts coming.

I find myself wavering, wondering if it's fair for me to cut back right now, when other things are uncertain. I wonder if I'm being selfish. But then I look at the kids around me and know that they need a mother and a caregiver who can be fully present, instead of pulled in so many directions at once. I know what is needed and that if I am willing to wait and trust, to have faith in His leading, He will provide enough light for each step I need to take. And as I take those steps, one by one, I will be led to make the right decisions.

So instead of stressing and worrying I will continue to take one step at a time, knowing that if He wants me change directions He will make the clear to me. If He wants me to continue this course that will also be clear and the what-ifs and how-tos will be dealt with in His perfect timimg.

For more on keeping faith fresh read the encouraging posts linked up at Faith Barista JAM.